after disappearing for a year i am back. just need a place to rant out everything.

after all i know i cant get to sleep tonight. somehow i wish that you will be reading this post, but what are the chances of that happening?

i wanna explain - explain what's all the stuff that's going through my head. but how do i start? i don't want it to affect your decision either. thus, i chose to keep quiet.

once again, its back to the old scenes - where people are stepping ahead for the next stage of life, one which people leave me behind and move on, perhaps with antoher person beside them.

am i gonna face that all over again? after trying so hard to pick all the pieces up, am i gonna end up shattering it again?

what am i suppose to do? trust? i dont know how to honestly. i have problems trusting myself. i used to believe that being faithful will defintely be of some good. after all we reap what we sowed. but i was wrong. i am scared. more scared that you ever know.

though i have been so harsh and hard, i was still hoping of seeing you at the void deck, or outside my office. but it didn't happen. somehow i wish you will turn up tomorrow at the place that i am studying tomorrow. after all that i have said, who will?

i don't want you to change your decision or cause you any hurt or distraction just cause of my insecurities, thus i believe there will be someone better out there.

someone whom will treat you better.

thanks for everything. i really appreciate it.

yes, how i wish this is just a bad dream or spell. but i hope whatever i am doing or did will do you good. i really hope so. even if it takes me to be the bad person. as long as you are happy. i will be too.

madeline.
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