SOMEWHERE OVER THE RAINBOW.

Thursday, March 08, 2007

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yes yes rena. i will change the template soon okay? when i really really have the time to do everything again. haha. sorry la. my handwriting's smaller i tell you. haha.

and yes yes shu. i am back to blog. had busy weeks and not in the MOOD to blog. sounds familiar? haha. i think you are gonna kill me soon.

didn't have a bus home today so i took a cab from toa payoh. and my dad came down to pay for my fare! haha. thanks dad. one sweet deed and it's good enough! haha. =)

yups. so the past few weeks have been so much of fyp. all the mondays and sometimes tuesday. presented. discussed and there's still so much to do. pretty unbearable at times. but just have to live with it and be enthu about it so that i will score. how contradicting. and and. why are the SAS STUDENTS starting FYP first. omg. total holiday wreckers.

plus i don't really sense unity among the fyp team not refering to all members ya. but it's more like throwing responsiblities to someone and hoping that that person will settle it for you. quite farked up at times especially when you wish to get things done once and for all. but i guess it's just part and parcel of working with many teams and there are more to come in the future right. oh wells.

i am 19 already. eeks. it's gonna be the big 2 next year. i wonder what will i be doing by then. haha. no harm thinking about the future nevertheless right? better to be safe and plan then to be sorry. but seriously, i don't have any idea what i am gonna do in the future. cause everything seems so far and vague. anyone feeling the same way. well, in simple, you can say that i am scared of the future.

i guess i finally got what one meant when he or she becomes dependent on fate which is somehow the last resort. and i finally got it why that was mentioned at that time, maybe it was brought up to refer to certain issues, but i just didn't got it at that time. cause i thought many many efforts could have made a big difference in everything. how slow and naive right. haha. now with the option to drivel on in this or learn to let go, pack up my feelings and move on. how easily said. but so hard to be done. well, just leave it to fate. one day if it was meant to be again, it will be. just like meiwei's nick: let go; let god.

i didn't know that the impact would be so big. perhaps i finally got a taste of my own medicine. it's been years, but the damage and scar would not just disappear like that somehow. though the familiar feeling is still there. there's a fortress that have been built to prevent the admission already. it's payback time no matter what. but i am still glad for certain matters. no matter what, hope that things will be okay and continue smiling.

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