I HATE AM POSITIVE ABOUT HATING FYP TO THE CORE NOW. URGH. what's with the last minutes meeting, date due and outing. rah! my time isn't all catered for that. omg. urgh. just when i though i could stay away from FYP for one week. BLAH. =

hm. i think i am easily turned off by people nowadays. especially by people who are not close to me. maybe i am jsut getting mean-er. but then again it's quite irony. cause i end up being okay with the people that i can't stand and ending up not liking that person that i was okay with at first. so conclusion: first impression counts a lot; but the there after encounter also matter a lot. sounds like i am nonsense-ing again la. but it's true la. PLEASE BE ORIGINAL! rah.

to be numbed actually has a few meanings to it. one could be due to too much hurt, while the other one could be yours insisting on doing that to prevent yourself from getting hurt. and maybe there are many more meanings to it. but nevertheless, it is caused by many many damages and hurt.

i am not doing well in court ar. sighs. how am i going to get more experience judging by the rate and way that i am playing now. but sometimes when i am asked to play, my mind will blank out immediately. oh no. hais.

a mixture of all the rubbish feeling is enough to kill me. i guess i have attained a higher level of putting on a mask to hide stuff. haha. clap hands please. maybe that's sort of drawing a line in between things so that i won't screw things up. doesn't it seem so?

i am not tired. but just don't know what to do or say anymore. perhaps i am at my wits or am indeed speechless already. after so much that has happened it's going that way, and it seems like it's all going down the drain. i so wanna just leave but i can't. i don'y know what's keeping me holding on either. it's just so .......

while things are not going the way i want it to be, it kept me thinking of the past. when i thought i could just move on and let go and leave it to fate. but i just wanna rely, open up and get close again. how i wish things can go back the way it is. but i am not capable of doing it i guess. plus i have said that i am gonna pack up and move on din i? was it a correct move then? cause it will be difficult. and there are other reasons to it .... to make me wanna reconsider everything again. =(

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