hm, firstly I would like to clarify that the previous blog right. it has nothing to do with vball or school. so hor. no need to guess already. if you know me well enough you will know what i am talking about, or just ask me laaaaaaa. stop making wild guesses. =)

neways. the whole weekend just sucked big time. ya sick. and yes temperature going up and down. slight fever then suddenly very cold again. don'y know what's happening but have been taking panadol C. and its quite terrible la. cause it causes sleeplessness. so no matter how early i go to bed. i will end up waking up somehow at like the wee hours or very early. and when i do really fall asleep. its just time to go to school. damn. damn tired. and ya. have to send my mp3 down fro repair tomorrow. sighs. i am like so attached to it laa. will just make do with the radio on my phone then. no choice. =(

was thinking about this thing for like dman long, and ya only blogging it now. but it's better than never right. realise that things in friendships are actually either quite twisted and turned or it goes up and down like a roller coaster.

was listening to fan wei qi's song about a friendship. the lyrics says that (if i never translate and interpret wrongly la, sorry my chinses has become quite limited after o levels.) the first time she and another girl met, they did nto really meet eye to eye. but in the end they becoem so close that it is something like bestfriends; in the end she got attached but the bestfriend still remain more important and closer as compared to the boyfriend and and through each devastation and heartbreak they are just there for each other. something like that i guess. sweet. but snap back to reality. does this scenerio really appear in real life?

friends are the important part of life the moment you step out of your house. but what kind of friends are you to the one thats next to you when you are in school or when you are in dire straits?
* there are friends who made it seem like friendships were that impoertant, but in the end they are the one who walk away.
* there are friends who befriend you just for the sake of befriending.
* there are friends who backstab you even when you are in the darkest journey of life.
* there are friends who will backstab you for the sake of fame, money and other advantages that they can tap from you.
* there are friends who actually bother even though you were not very close to them back then
* there are friends who know that you exist even though the only words you said to each other was only hi and bye.
* there are friends who actually reminisce and wants everything back although there was damage done
* there are friend who choose to walk out of your life when they have hurt you.
* there are friends who will be there 24/7, regardless or rain or shine
* there are friends who will put themselves in your shoes, move on with you and pull you out of your misery.
* there are friends who will do a lot to just get to you.
* there are friends who will stand up for you in times of need.
* there are friends who will believe in you even though nothing is said or all odds are against you.
* there are friends who will cause more misery
* there are friends who will walk silently beside you, making sure that they are there in case anything happens.
sometimes it not what has been done that matters. it's the presence that matters the most. at least it shows concern.

i can't help it but saw it again.
to believe it or not?
what's next?
how many more to go?
why cant it be like any other ordinary thing out there?

there's so much that i wish i could do.
but where did all the courage went?
after saying so much, did it mattered at all?
after saying so much, things are still not in the right place.
after those stuff, and backing out.
i still wanna step forward.
but how?
things are just not that simple.

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