it's pretty late or rather very early already. but just wanted to write something on my blog. since it has been some time thati really rant out or pen down some stuff. well. before blogging i always have a train of thoughts or truckloads of things to say. but the moment when i start to type. all those thoughs seem to have diminished by itself. or rather i am getting old. which is quite bad judging at my age. =X

hm. watched attack number one just now and cried. how dumb. but i can't help it but be emo during certain scenes. rather old vball show already. but it's quite cool to watch how they play and everything. in fact it's just another way of learning right? so we shouldnt rule out all ways of learning. something that really touches me was when the captain was kick out of the team due to the responsibilities given by some jerk when it wasn't hher fault at all, she still fought to stay on. even if it takes being a maid for the team when she herself can't cook for nuts. and how the other team members fought and perservere on so that the prinicipal will allow her to be on the team again. the team spirit and determination is just like an ember that will enver be extinguished. cool. i need some of the determination and willpower too! haha. =)

overall, quite a number of things happened this week. some good some bad, just like any other ordinary day right? well. some things have really had me taken aback. i'm not saying that it's a bad turnout or anything of that sort. but i just need time to figure out how is it going, to absorb and whether i am up for it again. but i'm happy that it happened. but on the other hand, i am rather helpless regarding certain issues. for some it's not that i don't wanna do anything about it. i just havent come face to face with it yet? and i am not ready to deal with what's gonna come next? and what are the conseqences of it. this is pure selfishness when i just refuse to face it and avoid time nad time again. sorry. the situation now is nothing that i wanted right from the start. but why do i have to take the blame? well. never mind. its just my fault again. and and. i think guoyong is angry with me for not keeping my promise of visiting him when he's sick. but i just thought that it's pretty inappropriate and a lot more stuff. uhs. helps. god please give me some strength so that i will be able to be the pillar of strength for another person. pretty please? i don't want to give up either. =

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