SOMEWHERE OVER THE RAINBOW.

Monday, August 14, 2006

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am on the bus blogging now. wanted to do it since just now. perhaps the long rides that i enjoy will let me really blog what i really wanna say and feel. i guess so. the solitude and silence is just the best thing to ever wish for when you are troubled and when you really need some peace from anything or anyone. that's just me.

it has been a long and tough fight since i don't know when. i am sure that that applies to a lot of prople out there too. it's indded surprising that i have made it till this point. really an amazing feat. but i knoe that the future is gonna be musch more tormenting and tiring. so i better brace myself up and fight on. isn't that the best that everyone claims to be? but can anyone just prove that it's a easy gesture? no one can. not even the greatest man on earth.

another talk that made a lot of comments that has been tormenting everyone cleared up. i really hope that it's really gonna change things this time. everyone is tired, that's a very obvious fact. and even the strongest person in the team cried. i really do hope that everything will change for the better and the past would not be brougth up again. sometimes when certain people's names are being brought up due to the despreration and everything. there's a point to everything that was being mentioned. but those people whose name was mentioned don't feel good at all. but yet to prevent more uphappiness the only way is to keep quiet. last but not least. i really do hope that the promise that the five of us made to each other at the tanglin court will still be kept and we will not give up each other and be each other's strength instead.

i really don't know what's gonna happen next. when two people who cannot express themselves are put together. it really hurts and sucks to be in that kinda situation. sometimes it's just so close but yet so far. sometimes, it just take time and patience to overcome everything. but will it be strong enough to do so. to overcome everything together? ya people are aright. sometimes when you do not know that person well enough, you don't know when that person is alright or when does that person want you to approach. so in the end you just leave the person there to fend for herself and so on. sometimes it's just the courage factor that's making everybody a fool. sometiems it's just the insecurity that is eating everything up bit by bit, making everything worse? so how is time gonna prove everything wrong? i have no idea. as much as i wish that those msgs mean something, but i just don't have the courage to ask. i don't have the courage to hope.

i hope that somethings can be just left there and not digged up again. ya. to prevent anything from going wrong again. please do not attempt anything to wreck anything. cause it tooks months for everything to change and be alright again.

i hope tht that few bits of happiness that i am having won't be taken away. that's all i hope for. if it's not too much to ask for.

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