SOMEWHERE OVER THE RAINBOW.

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

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this few days are jsut like so screwed. not in the mood to do anything. but ya. things have took a turn for a change. and i am elated. though i may not show it. but i really am.

ok. so i am gonna be rumoured as another buaya just cause i am helping a friend. yaya. i like that person. ya right la! BAH!

had training today! i finally believed that mood affects training so much. the determination, confidence and preserverance too. started with rally. was playing like crap. all the receive balls when in all direction except for front. spike land on the ground right in front of me. = got scolded for not moving and waiting for the ball to come to me! AH! and when there was a out ball, i ran like nobody's business just to get it before it falls to the ground. omg! almost died. plus i kept using one hand to receive. dodged balls. and every wrong thing. by the time when it was all over. i really had the intention to just raise the white flag and give up. was damn pissed, tired and can't be bothered. then later we had to spike. was trying to graps the timing thing again. goh. ended up not jumping for several balls and ball ended up flying everywhere again. gosh! and my common mistake! to jump a little before i spike and to jump when i received several ball. omg i need serious theraphy on that! nvm. i shall work hard and strive harder. later played friendly match. was shocked that rena chose me though. thought she would pick someone else. but i like the grouping or rather LOVE. coach expected us to lose. but we won both! wah happiness! and things became better! maybe it's cause of lesser pressure and that i was happier! was damn happy. haha. couldn't help but smile and cheer my team members on! haha! i will work harder for the team. for the undying passion and spirit. and brave through difficult times together with you guys. =) and the thing which touched me today was that coach really cheered me on! i saw the seriousness! i couldn't believe my eyes la. and i am really gonna take that moment as my spuring-on and motivation moment. it made me believe that miracles do happen and that hardwork really pays off. really. coach, i will not let you down. =))

ok. today was just madeline-get-abused day! like wth. min came to my class today. and i ended up getting tickled by her cause of my comments which were mostly crap. then ling hui had to push my head today cause of my dumb comment again. then later when other groups were presenting. kailing kept poking me from shoulder to hand! and it was like damn itchy la! then i think emma smack me also. ok that's not all. during training. shu's ball hit my leg. mel's ball hit my butt and face! gosh i became the laughing stock la. cause i used the same method on regina like seconds ago! but i swear that it wasn't intentional. and while serving balls and picking balls i got hit twice again. WHAT'S WITH THE PPL SURROUNDING ME BEING SO ABUSIVE AND VIOLENT SUDDENLY! RAH!

joke of the day: i fell back while receiving the ball and ended up lying flat on the ground! excellent work! =X
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hmm this entry is gonna sound even more emo than the rest. whee. havent felt this way for a long long time. just a lot a lot to be happy about. but over this whole period of time. i have come to realise a lot of things. such as things really don't come by easily, it's just a matter of whether you are willing to take the step and do what's ought to be done. also, i ahve realised that a lot of things in life are not replacable no matter how hard you try. and you will only really treasure and regret when it's gone. and i regret in scarring some people. i don't mean it. but i know that the scar will remain there forever.

this is just an entry for the many many heartfelt words and gratitude that i have been feeling. =)

i promise to write an entry for fuzz kow though he can't probably read it now since he is in camp. kor i miss you. thanks for doting on me. thanks for making me happy when i am super down. thanks for being there. my kor for 5 years already! and it's still counting! thanks for singing for me when i really needed someone to make me feel better. thanks for talking to me through the night. thanks for the words. thanks for mimicking donald duck! haha. thanks for maknig an effort to go down to taka and going down to the wrong place thinking that i work there. haha. your effort is greatly appreciated by your mei! kor, i love you! =). you are irreplacable.

Yr jie. my cute little sis. heh. don't know how i got to know you too. you just appeared on my msn someday somehow. haha. and i decide to talk to you. haha just had to be so coincidental that i recognise you from your msn pic and saw you at kap! have to be so coincidental that i always see you and you don't see me. haha. i feel like a spy. heh. jie thanks for offering the best listening ear to me. thanks for helping me for o levels though i still scrape through only. thanks for understanding me so well. thanks for not backing off when i just throw my tantrums at you. we just share this affinity! haha. 2 yrs and still counting right? stop squashing your soft toys la girl! and also bring me to your hostel soon! i wanan raid your room! haha. sis loves you k! you are irreplacable.

darren, waylon, sebastian and madeline. the friends that truely got to know each other since they were born. almost 18 years already. thanks for the times that we had in the past. thanks for the laughters, craziness, sadness and everything. and i even ended up liking one of you guys. heh. i really miss those times. though we have split up due to some misunderstandings. i still hope that everything can be like last time. back to our innocent days. but all i could sense was the stranger feeling when i met one of you guys just a month back. it was just plain silence. that's something that i will wanna change. but nevertheless, you guys played a big part on my growing up days. you guys are irreplacable.

shih ling. jie! god knows why and how we know and why we know each other. this sis rocks my world! haha. one that complains when she doesn't see me in school. one that waited outside stadium with food for me when i was working at the other side of taka. sweet! one that i got angry with and started ignoring. sis. thanks for listening to all my complains and vice versa. i will be there no matter what happens. and i wanna go diving la! but that is when i have the money. must bring me along k! sis, love you! you are irreplacable.

mel. my crazy partner. i miss my dear. together we form the triplets. haha. thanks for everything. for withstanding through thick and thins with me though we have only known each toerh for like one year plus. haha. we just share so many things in common. haha. even our coordinations are liks so similar. i know you get what i mean. i just hope that the arguements that we had previosuly not long ago is not going to affect anything. thanks for your support and encouragement. get out of the i-can't-be-bothered thing leh. it just makes me wanna smack you sometimes la! and i have to find a blardy jacket that has my size and my taste. and i am not picky hor pls! you are irreplacaeble too!

pigeon! gosh. how time flies. you are ageing with me. haha. i am so gonna get killed. the bimbo in our clique. i miss you. i miss staying over at your house and making pizza in the middle of the night with iris sleeping. that pig! but we are jsut so caught up with our individual lives now that meeting up will also be difficult. it's just so hard to even meet up. sighs. cause why? the four of us when on separate ways. all to the different polys. how great can that be? i remembered that youe choice was cause of me. and yet i din made it in to that stupid course from your sch cause they lowered the points. my entertainer! haha. and facial advisor! i miss you! you will always be the irreplacable one. oh ya. our cliques' letters are still with me. right beside my bed. :)

team rp vballers! you guys have palyed a big part of my poly life. haha. i think my life will be quite boring and dull without you guys. really. though certain things are not going too well now. but we will go through it together k! RP ACE. sometimes there is too much that we wanna say. but we just don't have the courage to say it cause of many many factors. but together we shall strive and scale at greater heights alright? we shall prove the whole world wrong! you guys are irreplacable. =)

ah ma is my miss-irreplacable. i love her! haha. the little words and effort that she makes really puts a smile on my face no matter how upset or angry i am! i will be filial from now on. =) ah ma. must be touched k! haha. so bhb. learn from you want!

there are many other people who are also irreplacable. but i don't know if it's right to mention them. but they have made a huge impact on my life and i love them for them ya?

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