SOMEWHERE OVER THE RAINBOW.

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

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was kinda overwhelmed by lots of emotions today. things that i have not thought before suddenly appear to be so clear and scary. haha. was watching the champions when i was kinda touched by certain words, "let your confidence overcome what should be overcomed". easier said than done right? especially when you have been hurt or demoralized before.

yesterday was a great day! haha. though i'm not feeling too good but i was elated la. went to school with a super draggy and not enthu attitude till i was debating with my friend whether we should enter the class not. cause it was a relief fac. den that hazel had to mention that we came all the way den dun go in like a little crazy. so ya went into class. screwed up first and second meetings lo. boring fac. =X plus she kept shooting people with all the questions. ok but i was busy messaging ppl on MSN. haha. at least i made an effort to stay awake to listen to some of the things that were going on. then the class decided to PON. haha! talk and talk while people were presenting their worksheet. then some of the comments made were like damn funny but i cant laugh too loudly cause the fac was sitting right in front of me. so emma, sihui and i were like hiding behind our screens laughing! so lame la the guys. then later cause nobody wanna pon. so i went to buy lunch with emma. but when i reached class i saw a congregation outside class with their bags! omg la. like over 10 ppl. then with little persuasion i packed my bag and left with them! haha. so fun ok! we walked to woodlands mrt station like we were having some class excursion. and guess what we met one of the module chair along our way and he was staring at us! haha. but we couldn't care less and just turned and continue walking. then later we went cine to eat pasta den kBox. though i din sing but i enjoyed myself! stupid zhiwei was making funny comments! and suxin was damn lame la. and disgusting! stupid jokes. ok it was not so much of a joke but it's gross la! she just had to be so lame. and i was busy bullying celina! haha. too nice to bully. whee! oh ya i met ah ma along the way and she said that i was a naugthy girl. BLEH! had fun! we sohuld have more of this. ok i am getting bad. BAH! i don't care.

went down to practice vball today. totally no shou gan at all. spike balls went everywhere without spin and no force. set balls kept spinning and and didn't go far. in the end came back home after a short while.

some thoughts just can't deminished and be distinguished like that. spoke to weihong today and found out that their exams end tomorrow if the option physics paper weren't included. at that point i began thinking again. will that person sms me once it is over? but then it's better to not harbor any hope right? before i get disappointed again. don't wanna go back to that state again. if he's really going away. then go as far as possible. don't come back again. till i am really over you. that's all i am asking. yups.

things have sorta further proved that you only appear when you need me. well let me tell you. i am sick of that. so much for promises. so much for those things that were said. all rubbish! where were you when i needed you the most? more bothered with your own stuff to even bother about me. if that's so. then it's fine with me ya. do what you deem fit! a superficial listening ear is not something that i need. save it ya.

i must learn to draw a line in between vball court times and my emotions. i must learn how to concentrate. i must learn that in order for me to improve i must try. no matter how hard it is i must try! and slowly build my level of confidence up! yup and keep this spirit going!

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