damn i cant help it but feel that way again. sighs. HELP me someone! it's not the feeling of depressed coz i have surpressed it to the maximum though i still wish that things could go back to the past. but it's the feeling of hope, comfort and concern for another issue which is totally not relating to that one above. so no wrong ideas please. maybe i should not have thought about it that way. RAH! cause i don't want it to end up as something that will bring me down again. someone that will bring me to my downfall again. i'm scared that this whole thing may just involve a willing part and a neutrel party. RAH! sighs. like that one that has happened once during the first semester; those things that I have done. in the end, we still drifted apart and only will be there in times of needs.

xians was right in the horoscope reading! RAH! it said that i can't stay up so much for this year. but obviously i din follow what was said, great! now i have to deal with the heath that is getting from bad to worst! screwed! gastric, stomach, giddiness, migrane! rah i seriously hope that nothing new is coming! and i hope that xian is ok! poor owner! lobs dote on you k! i care! just that you were too busy to notice anything. =(

actually i can't explain why am i so calm despite what had happened. i guess that i have already started burying things even before this whole thing really exploded and got worst. will burying really make me forget everything bad tht has happened. even memories till i am ready to dig up the pass and face it and reminisce the happiness that i once felt.

dwell and dweel. a penny for your thought. i should just quit thinking and be a hermit at times from now on no matter how hard it is. pretending is still the best solution. just pretend that you are ok and everything else is ok and that you will brave through every storm and get stronger by the end of the day. am i right? isn't everyone doing that?

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