never blog for so long, so long already so just thought of writing. many things have improved from the last time. and i feel much lighter now. but still i am stressed over certain matters in my life. ZZzzZZz ya? lets just pen it down one by one. just hope that it will remain this way, not becoming worst. i will need to pray hard.

URGH! just when i thought that things were better, you have to ruin it. yes i am the one ruining it ok! i am the one who is always neglecting you. you are always the right one, and i am wrong. you always have to wait for me alright. and i always have to be there for you. fine. have it your way. why does it always have to be this way. when one returns, the other one will just go away? are we really not fated? why doesn't it seem like that in the past? sighs. i am helpless towards this situation. somebody help me please.

i am glad that i finally got some things cleared. you have made your stand clear, so did i. you have proved that everthing can withstand time. =) you've impressed me. though you've failed me many times, you've proved my wait to be worth while. after so many ordeals and ups and downs, is this ordeal going to be the last? i don't think so. at least i am not alone in all these. though many things are not confirmed yet, but you managed to add colours to my world again.

coach just spoke to me the other day. all of a sudden, it seems like i am so distant; all the while i was thinking of it the other way. yes, i am looked down cause of that, and i thought i was the worst player, not cause of that, but cause of skill. but it's the other way round. why must heaven be so unfair? i am not that tall to experience such a problem either, plus those people who have this problem are always the lengthy people. then again, i almost tripped the other day. maybe coach was right. i am just an exceptional case. why can't i just have what others have since i put in the effort. then again. heaven's never fair. many people have to work doubly hard just to overcome their problem and to get what they wanna attain in life. can i do that also? i just don't want to upset myself time and time again, but if i choose to give up now then it will be very wasted. but the effort that i have to put in is so much more than others, how? can someone just help me out. thanks kok, xian and mel for counselling me. though i've sorta made you guys angry over certain matters. i just need some time to think this over. but i really do like vball alot alot. sighs. i don't wanna give up, can heaven have some mercy on me.

why can't you just pluck up some courage and face some facts. are you really that coward. you jsut choose to stand behind me and look. you think that i don't know? well let me tell you. i ahve some spies around, it's just that you don't know. i just hope that i won't be disappointed anymore. i don't want to. don't utter some stuff that are not even true alright. i just don't like it. i don't care if you think that i am dao or what, just spare a thought for my feelings ok.

got my 5th A. still way below my expectations. have to work hard. 25 more to go to reach my goal. i know that i can do it. and i am gonna do it without using any underhand methods. cause i am a person with dignity and pride. no matter what, i will contribute at least a little to help. i will never allow myself to slack and do nothing and disappoint myself in the end.

Zu ren damn pian xin la. fine! zu ren is horrible. qin's so much better. i don't care. at least she doesn't bully me and she's fair.

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