i just realised after calculating that i've slept for less than 25 hours for the whole week. i think i am crazy and falling ill soon. i am aching everywhere and i've scraped my knees twice on the same spot. excellent. sighs. have been kinda hot tempered towards certain matters this week. urgh. but for some matter i just choose to keep quiet and fade away before i do something dracstic that i will regret for life.

to whoever you are. i don't care if you read me blog or anything. but congrats. you've made it to the top of my bitch and ostracised list. so much for being a friend. after all this time you are still doing what you've been doing. yes. selfish brat! all you think about is youself. i've really helped the wrong person big time. and i regret it truely. so much for helping. money is all that revolved around you. fine. be money minded for all i care. just don't associate yourself with me for i will not. just stay away from me as far as possible and that's final.

thanks elaine for coaching me. though i sorta got on her nerve a little. at least i've really learnt something and i will take her advice seriously and will try to remember it so i won't make the same mistake in the future. i will practice more so that i won't deprove. i will train hard no matter what it takes. nice having you coaching me. really. hope that i will not disappoint you and will improve! for those who look down on me. don't think i don't know. i will work hard and make it one day. just one day. watch it. nothing is gonna bring me down. i will try to change my attitude during training, be more focused and work harder no matter what, whether i played well or not and try to slack less. yes i am angry with myself for not being focused. ughs!

i am disappointed. again. why must this happen. when i placed and pin hopes on you. you just have to shatter everything. i feel unimportant. so much for excuses. i am learning this technique also. URGH! i can't take it anymore. have i just been a dumb ass for all time. one waiting for something that won't even come! so b it. *i wanna scream! AH!

yes. i am gonna give up! i don't know how am i gonna do that. it seems so difficult. just wanna sleep. amnesia! yes. forget about what happened then i don't have to go through this. URGH! whay can't i just increase the percentage so easily. yes increase by 0.5%. i wanna decrease it! i feel terrible. i was waiting over there like an diot for almost 20 minutes. yes. dumb again. why am i always the one doing all these dumb stuff! ughs! yes angry with myself again! i don't even know whether i am avoiding you or gettingclose. yes confused. never mind. give up ya. then all problems are solved! yes. force myself no matter how hard it is. sobs! i hate this. i rather continue with this. RAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

thinkering column: do not let your limit challenge you. but challenge your limit! do not let obstacles overcome you, bu you overcoming your obstacles! the greater you fall, the stronger you will stand in the future.

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