SOMEWHERE OVER THE RAINBOW.

Thursday, September 01, 2005

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emotional check: high, hyper and mad!

k i think i was really crazy today. during first break out, went out to seven eleven to buy vodka lime. shared with siying. drank half of it. didnt had enough so asked xian to follow me to seven elevens again and bought vodka peach, one whole bottle to myself. haha. had a hard time persuading her alright! after drinking felt a littllater e hot. perhaps that was the sign that i was a little tipsy. uh oh. but anyway. it was fun. guess the rest didnt expect me to be such a drinker in the first place. the rest of the day was super high with no worries and so on. at least i manage to drown myself and not think so much. really i did it. after so long of sadness. perhpas some would say that i am avoiding again. but who cares? shucks i am back to the past!! how? saw some people on the way back! it was scary ok! least expected to see! AH! it was like playing police and thief!

din go for trainnig today. wasnt feeling that good. was a little tipsy, headache , wrist and ankle hurts. darn! the new coach ket looking at me ok! scary. sure ask me what happneed to me today. why i din attend with the rest! the worst was only 3 year one girls turned up for training!! see how horrible it was? sure die on monday! i need an ankle guard soon. dont know whether it is healing or becoming worst also! sighs. i dun wanna visit the physio, later he or she ban me from plaing for quite some time how? sad ok! nature healing is the best although it will take more time.

i am gonna drink again tomorrow! WHEE! k this is madness. i hope that i am not getting addicted to the drink, or else it will turn out to be disastrous. i just want it to be a casual leisure. and i hope that i can do it! at least clubbing is sometihng that i wont do! so ya. i am still guai after all. =)

haha. i thought that i was darn transparent in front of you. or were you just shy? anyways. you spoke to me! =) happiness checked! the least expected will happen when you dont expect it! i guess we are still kinda shy. natural reaction right? heh. or is it just an excuse. but we were tongue tied! haha. *shys. was ven higher and happier after that! i hope that things will go smoothly after putting in so much effort!! =) i am contented don't wish to be greedy or think too far before all will be taken away from me. =)

everything in life needs a timing. from getting into a relationship to healing of hurt. AH! why is the time factor always so important? spare me from that! i wanna stop time so that i can have all the happiness that i want for life! is that too greedy of me? how contradicting. one minute i am contented, next minute i am wishing for more! mans. really nuts today.

talking to the head of academic affairs on monday about the changing of class. i am nervous and scared. i don't wanna change class though there are quite abit of happiness here and there. we have gone through thick and thin together. for those who wanna change class, move on. i won't let your thinking affect me! i will stand strong and firm! heh. at least i am not as unfeeling and cruel as you people. i spare a thought for other people's feelings. i know the majority will support my group! may the force be with us!

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