SOMEWHERE OVER THE RAINBOW.

Saturday, September 03, 2005

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emotional check: feeling horrible, sadness has clouded me once again. scale of diappointment would probably hit 80 to 90%.

it's 3.16am now. wanted to sleep early. but ended up blog surfing, chatting, sms-ing bro and most importantly reminiscing. that's the part which which saddens me the most. i'm still stuck in between the past and reality. when am i ever gonna go past the things that have happened? it seems so impossible right now. continue trying though it's still dooted deeply in my brain. what a rewadless move. sucks.

yes. i showed attitude yesterday. and you know why? cause you disappointed me. it's not the words that you said that affected me so much. it was the way you bahave and your actions that got to me. am i suppose to act ignorant again? sorry i am not. it really got me thinking if i should really do something or just skip the whole meeting on monday with alwis. cause maybe it's better that we are not in the same class the next semester? AGRH! i'm pissed ya. even after what i said just now din help. what do you want me to do. fine. suit yourself ok. if you wanna act ignorant. i can do so also. even if we remain in the same class i will act ignorant! totally ignorant. just don't regret.

reminiscing really saddened me a lot. just like what it did to bro. RAH! i realised that i am still stuck in the past. so much of it. why am i still thinknig like that when you chose to run away and avoid? just to pretend that things are fine when they are not. well let me tell you. you are not the only one that i can get information from. wake up to reality. all along i have been this fool who believed that everything is fine when they are not. how foolish. when i asked, there was no reply. fine since you refuse to reply for so long. i won't force you. i don't know what to do anymore. i will just let god and fate decide alright.

went to watch herbie with xian yesterday after the treat from ridwan. it was a good one. thanks sir, you rock! herbie's number is 53. i like the number for obvious reasons. but only those who know me well enough will know why. haha. but nevertheless. the vehicle is damn cute, it has emotions. just seemed like it was alive. if only i have such a car! i wouldnt be late for school and worry so much. but then again. reality check! no such things will exist in real life. quit building castles in the air. =

i'm gonna get real fat! how? shucks! i just can't resist the temptation of nice food, and the quantity that i consumed is enormous. darns.i had fishball and big brekfast for breakfast, after that which i want to take a nap. then for dinner i had two plates of rice and one bowl of soup. uh oh! i think i should take up some nutrition course soon! before i explose due to excessive eating. I DONT WANNA BE FAT!

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