emotional check: down. sick. puzzled. pondering...

my straight and not slanted font is finally back! haha. mad already. just don't like the previous entry font, so slanted and illegible. bah! =)

just when you thought that i was asleep, you spoke about the money issue again. i am not deaf for your info, i just laid there, pretending to sleep. after that my attitude totally change. maybe someone noticed. but i am hurt by what you say. i did what i could and was responsible and this is what i get. so much for being responsible. i know that it's partially my fault, but i am doing my best to make it up. many a times i just chose to keep quiet ya. that's all. though you still treat me well, you will notice that my attitude towards things has somehow change. since those words came out from your mouth, you know that change will be inevitable as long as it gets to my ears. the end. so ya. i am gonna get a job, and try to support myself through university if possible. i am gonna prove you wrong. no matter how hard it is i will survive. why do the money issue always seem more important than me. do you really value the dollar sign more than me. beats me either. maybe it was for my own good, but you don't hav to put it that way and in front of certain peolple just like that. forget it. should i confront you?

shucks!! falling ill again. yesterday was the left side of my throat, today is the right side. plus flu. darn. again. fork out my own money to buy my own medicine without even saying a word. i just don't want people to worry, but in the end what do i get. assumptions and accusing me. all i want is to remain silence and nothing else ya.

maybe i shouldn't have done what i did. really. how does it matter to you. maybe it's me who's the wishful thinking in the first place. sighs. never mind it isnt the first time anyway.

i hope that kok will be fine. prays that he will be strong no matter ehat happens. i'll always be there for him ya. no matter rain or shine.

the darkness around me seems to be overpowering everything. it is getting darker and darker as moments pass. i am just hiding in one corner waiting for a light to come to me. have been searching long for this light. but it's nowhere to be found.

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