it's been some times since i last blogged. oh well. was too tired and sleepy. and most important was lazy to blog. haha quite a few things happening right now. oh well. this entry may sound depressing again. haha. but it will still have it's laughter. so for those who are reading this, fret not alright? you won't fall asleep. =)

kinda pissed with the wireless. keep getting disconnected and so on. blardy irritating. especially when i am chatting with someone. infuriating. don't know when the connection will stabilise again, but then again, i am leeching from other access. so i can't say anything much but to appreciate what i have.

went to the guy's match on fri night. shits can. went there when everything ended already. so wasted and embarrassing. so dots too. but later went out with them to eat. haha. the guys are quite friendly afterall. nice chaps. lame too. haha. and da vincent sure eat a lot! went for the girls' match too. know that some of them are quite disappointed with the outcome. but they have tried their best. perhaps the morale just isn't there. but never mind. i still have faith in them. they will do well. and no matter what's the outcome, i'm still rpoud of them. =)

met evelyn while walking to the bus queue at the interchange today. sighs. if i had continue my life in NCC, i would have been someone reputable and one which people respect. at least i'll have an officer rank. but ya. i chose something brand new cause i have interest in it. but life's not gonna be easy when you are learning from step one all over again. RAH! but i have to admit that that's part and parcel of life and there's no way that i can avoid it. i'll have to face it sooner or later. and i'll not regret it. cause i chose it. and after watching the matches. my motivation is back to stay and i'm beginning to like volleyball more and more.

was talking to nessa earlier on. have i neglected her too much. till she became what she is now? sighs. another regret. when am i gonna live out of it? i seriously hope that she will be able to pull through this stage. i wanna see her happy again. jumping with joy cause of her results and cause all her other problems are solved. really.

was sitting in the bus today and thinking. what have i achieved ever since i went to poly. besides improving n volleyball as time goes by. and my friends. nothing more seems to be working the way i want it too. is that a retribution for some things?' i really don't want some things to happen. but it happened. and there's no way i can stop it now. can i choose to turn back time?

i have not let go of certain stuff. i thought i did. really did. then it hit me today. i am back to square one. all along i was just avoiding it. till today when it hit me that i still reminise the past though it may not even matter anymore.

i'm trapped in between the past and now. sighs!! =(

had fire drill yesterday. was ultra hilarious. or at least cranky. we were suppose to evacuate the premises only when the second bell rings. but right after the first bell ring, the faci chased us out of class already. and gave us a time limit some more. then some suggested that we get our laptops and go. so crazy. what a hassle. anyway it's just an exercise right. besides your life worth much more than that machine. but i brougth my tube of sweets along with me. was chewing non-stop. haha. then while "panicking", we were taking photos can! haha. too bored la. then had one photo where i stood too low and seemed so short. darn! i am not short ok. it's you guys who ask me to bend. RAH! meaners. then had one candid picture with xian and vicki. she was like gonna cut me up or something, then i had this finger like i was gonna poke her. all these were in the picture!! haha!! farnei ok! then my hair was in a total mess. din realise will i looked the laprop for my reflection after i went back to class. BAH! =X

went to watch charlie and the chocolate factory. not bad. kinda farnei and the characters are damn cute. especially the small people. don't know what they are called. but overall it's a show that's worth catching. =) oh ya i was wondering how charlie manage to stay in that house that seems like it's collapsing.

xian, if you ever let that person pat my head, i would rather you cut it off or i'll not let you at it forever and ever already. horrible you. meaner! mark my words! bleh! =X

so many thing have happened, but things seems to be getting from bad to worst. from ignoring you till cold shoulder. are you just waiting for me to approach? then everything will be solved? sighs. i was just tongue-tied at that moment. please do not take it to heart alright? i don't mean it. i'll make things better. i promise. i'll try harder. i'm trying alreay. i hope you got what i wanna say. again i'm sorry ya. i hope that you aren't disappointed cause i promise that i'll bring smiles to you soon. really. you have my word. =)

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