this is my first time blogging here. haha. just wanted to move away from the friendster blog where my entries are viewed by everyone. guess i still need that privacy after all. after all there are many things i wish to say, and don't want many others to get to know about right? sorry for the plain blogskin though, still adapting to blogspot. hope to change it to a rainbow thingy soon!

today kinda sucked although it's only the beginning of the week. this blog will most probably sound sad too. woke up late this morning by 9 minutes. hem. i'm not a perfectionist, just happen to take note of the time. =) guess it was due to the fact that i slept quite late last night, and that the weather this morning was perfect for me to sleep in. what a wet blanket. i have to go to school on youth day when i'm still a youth. =( so sad. then it just had to rain, blardy irritating, the wind kept bloeing and the umbrella was almost turned the other way although i was holding on to it so tightly. =X lucky i don;t have to run for the bus and mrt. or else i'll get more pissed off.

science module was a total disaster today. had to do the excel like so many times before getting the thing fully done, and when it's finally done; my group found out that we did the whole thing wrongly. it was like the end of the second meeting alreay. urgh. right. just when i thought that i can take a break. k moving on to after the quiz. the faci came confronting me, telling me that my performance for today was bad as compared to the last few weeks before the holidays. i was so fed up when i heard that. i was the one figuring out how the graph works and so on. and had to do it on my own while the rest was busy with some other stuff and slacking. how infuriating. blardy person. can't she just open her eyes and see for herself. sighs. in the end i argued with her claiming that i did the graph and all that, but she still sounded unconvinving. sobs. i lose the spirit to do this module already. fark her. hopw she falls flat on her face and knock her two front teeth off. = meaner. anyhows. just hope that my rj will help pull my grade up. sighs. =(

leg numb at the moment. such a yucky feeling. pins and needles irritating me. urgh. sighs. brought my medicine to school, but in the end never take them. what the hell. think my cold is coming back again. sighs. =( this entry is so filled with sad faces. end up buying more sweets ans chocolates in school. darn. when am i ever going to recover man. my thumb is hurting all over again. sighs. guess it's really badly strain this time. was about to even give up just now cause of the pain. and scrap my legs a little although i was wearing knee guards. rah. sighs. felt so guilty. borrowed angela's knee guards and sh was left with nothing to wear when it was her turn. hope that she didn't scrape her knees badly or else i will feel dan guilty. wanted to apologise just now, but forgotten. was more caught up in thinking about something else. hope that she doesn't blame me for what had happened. i just happen to end her guards to someone else. but i asked for her permission.

since i don't wish to make things so obvious and awkward, i shall just put your identity as you. sighs. the encounter with you was again so close yet so far. am i the one at fault and causing it? am i right to say that there were a few times when you tried to reach out for me but i just pretend that nothing has happened? i'm sorry. i just din know how to react to the situation, so i just pretend that nothing happened. but the truth is that i know that you are somewhere around me ya? perhaps this came in too late, or maybe you won't even read it. am i right to say that you tried taking a step forward? but i was just too dumb and rejected you in every way that i could. or at least tried avoiding it. i din notice up till now. when something happened, something thst have caused trouble to someone today would affect us so much if things were to get out of hand or the cat was to be out of the bag. sighs. i don't know what will happen next. but i guess i should just keep this all to myself ya. then nobody will know about anything.

why am i getting all these stares? have i done or say something wrong that have caused all these to happen? how i wish i knew something, but everything is kept from me. i just hope that those who do not know me personally will get to know me better, so that you won't have a wrong impression of me. i'm serious ya. although rumours may be true, it may be fake too. just give me a chance to prove you wrong alright?

i guess today's training is alright. i did improve a little bit more. at least i don't need to pracitce on the three steps spiking thing. woohoo! and that i did hit some balls while playing three versus three. have to thanks xiao ee ling and si hui for bring so tolerant and patient of me although i kept making the mistakes over and over again ya. i'm sorry, sometiems i really can't help it. i have to thank limay also, she was super patient in teaching me how to dig properly. damn nice a senior. sorry for making you run so much. din mean to. i'll continue to improve ok? oh. also, thanks for asking about my thumb. it's been a week or so and you still remember? i'm so touched can. so sweet of you. =)

-sighs. there's a cut on my gums. don't know when it happened. but i'll have a difficult time talking from now on. sighs. pain. =(

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