SOMEWHERE OVER THE RAINBOW.

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

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sighs. what a "wonderful" day again. my instincts are becoming stronger. while xian's is becoming weaker. i'll transmit some power to her asap man. haha. so fed up with the blog thingy. wanted to combine two blogskin stuff, then the whole thing just won't work. so irritating. maybe i'm just not cut out for computing stuff. =( damn tired now, but it's like i've not done anything about tomorrow's ut. damn! utobia again. sighs. been a sad sad day. here it goes...

this morning i almost lost my voice, so ya. today was like yellnig my jungs out, cause people just simply soucldn't hear me. are they deaf or am i just soft? sighs. YES., and that idiotic faci of mine just had to do that. pick on me from the start of the lesson. she wanted to transfer me to another group, but i refused to so another person went over to another gorup. followed by her stares and her frequent inspections. damn pissing off. she's like so suspicious of me and elthea just cause we keep talking. I DID A LITTLE OF IT OK! at least i din give up, although i did mention to her that i hated this module already. then came the presentation, a brilliant want indeed. fark it man. she knew that i wasn't listening to others presentation cause i was moving about when the air con broke down. heh more like rollnig of the wall and sticking on it for coolness. diaos. so she asked me a question. a repeated question to be exact. and i could't answer. then she embarrassed me in front of everyone. what's her damn problem man. can't even pronounce things properly in the first place. the alphabet l will be pronounced as alphabet r from her mouth. urgh. go for english enrichment course you doh!! then later she picked on me and elthea. lucky the gary and shaun was helpnig and that we know most of it, or else we'll be six feet underground already. a biased pig! rah!!! pms den pms. why must vent it on me. i'll still trying harder to do better in the future. but since you give me attitude, i'll return you the same thing too. a taste of your own medicine!

i'm like being picked on the facis for two consecutive days. rah! and on the first day i did quite alot of stuff but ended up being reprimanded. then today is just another instance of it. then other faci sayd that i'm not up to their standard. like hello. you all raised your standard not me can. madness. i admit that i tend to slack a little, but overall i still play my part and do my job well except for computing cause i really cannot help it but i'll try to do something about it. sighs.

guess that i'll have to start to give all my best for all the things that i do already. and also be clear-minded at all times. no more of that blurness thingy. alert and agile during trainings. attentive, contributing and hardworking during school hours. i'll keep to those words ya? or at least try my best to fulfil it. =) i must never go back in my steps, but look front and continue the race with an optimistic attitude and determination!! woohoo!! sounds so like a runner type. k madness again.

heh. today shaun and i bullied sy all the way from school till raffles place mrt station where she alighted. darn funny. she was like going to kill us kind already, and we still kept on talking like nobody's business to disturb her. HER FRIENDS! wahaha. she's so gonna kill me tomorrow. luckily we are not in the same team, or else it will be her turn to disturb me already. =X ShhhHH!! that's what i will tell her tomorrow when she instan messages me. haha. evil right?

MADELINE THE EVILER!

so weird, all of a sudden iao ee ling im me to ask if i did my self evaluaion already or not. then wehn i ask her why she just say nothing. hmmm. is she planning something to bully me again? =

i just hope that tomorrow will be a better day. and the faci will not treat the whole bunch of us differently just cause we made a grave mistake in his class. but he FORGAVE us. i guess he's a wonderful faci afterall. i hope he will noe prove me wrong and make me change my sentiments. =) everyday there's bound to be something that will make me angry and make my blood boil. ever sine the starting of this week. =( if this continues, i'll really blow my top soon, i really hope that it doesn't happen.

- i really sthe area next to my knees. damn sickening. the skin is peeling and rhe brown skin is there. i hope it's healing kind. then again angela's condition maybe worst cause she didn't have the guards on at all. was too afraid to ask her about it today, scared she will be mad at me. i'm sorry!! my gums still hurt and i spoke very funnily today. my throat is still dry and i'm suffering from a dry cough, flu plus blocked nose and heavy eyelids now. sighs. =(

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