SOMEWHERE OVER THE RAINBOW.

Friday, July 15, 2005

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just finish lessons and blogging in school. think i am going out for dinner and out till late at night again. now my dad is ill. one by one in the family everybody is falling ill. was it cause of me? haha.

first time i irritated shaun today. he was like so high tide kind then couldn't go to the toilet cause faci was presenting his 6p. then my water bottle is the nike spraying kind. so i kept on spraying water into my mouth. hahaha. and it sounded like peeing. haha. i did it for a few times, and his urgency got worst. much worst. haha. so funny. was laughing like hell. controlling my laughter so badly till faci looked at me for a few times. damn farnei can.

today's presentation was a little screwed up due to some factors. i felt really bad and guilty towards that person. i really wanted to help her at first cause the people presenting certain slides suddenly switched. and she din know the slides well. but i din know that she wasn't that well prepared. sighs. sads. i din want it to turn out that way either. =(

yesterday's training was alright i guess. improved as compared to last training. hee. happiness. my lacking of self confidence has been the factor that stopped me from performing well. only when i tell myself that i can do it, i will do at least a little better than the previous time. i guess i will have to do it more often. i know that i can do it. and i will continue to improve. i don't wanna let myself down. =)

yesterday was supposed to be a magnificent day. but some people just have to give me attitude for somethings that i have not done. and it really pissed my off. i was just keeping the anger to myself. if that person isn't who she is, i would have given worst attitude of would have done something already. judging from my character. *PISSED. and some pervert just have to keep staring at my friend at i. i swear i won't wear white anymore. bastard. if he does that again, i swear i will turn nasty and even gourge his eyes out. i swear i will not let him off so easily. freaking pervertic! keep your eyes to yourself, you son of a bitch! don't blame me for anything if you continue doing what you are doing.

i'm sorry that i chose to just ignore your existence at certain point of times and just walk past. i just don't know how to react or take the initiative. so i would rather look somewhere else than disappoint you further more. but i know that i disappoint you already just by choosing to walk away. i am sorry ya. =( i hope that i can think of something soon. meanwhile, ermz, i don't know what's happening and whats going to happen. but i am scared ya. so i keep withdrawing. sorry also. but things will be alright in the end ya? so smile more. =)

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