SOMEWHERE OVER THE RAINBOW.

Monday, July 18, 2005

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i'm sad k. don't think i'm some blur and dumb person who isn't noticing things around me. bah. my toe nail is coming off. i have some abrasion on me right chin. shucks. someone commented that i looked as if i got slap. k. to ass on to the seriousness, the pain in my hamstring has to come back all over again. kinda worsen it after training. i find it such a hassle to move about now. pain. =( though i was wearing the kneepad, it slipped off and i sorta scrape my knee while gun-ing the floor. rah. at least there was someone to ask if i was alright. although that person is known for bullying me. at least that's what i call her. =X thanks ya. =)

i'm so not looking forward for tomorrow's module. i wanna pon! shucks. i really feel like. plus the condition of my face. just now got so angry that the red area extended k. bah. was too flustered and angry i guess. only owner will know how i feel right now. i'm this lost sheep found in the pasture which will probably will never be found.

training was alright on the whole, just that i kept gun-ing the wrong direction. gosh. so embarrassing k. but lucky they never got punished cause of me. or else i will feel damn guilty. = in the end gun more than what was necessary. oh my spiking improved. at least baokun don't see a problem with my footing anymore. but i still get mixed up with which leg to use sometimes. shucks man. lucky i correct it. first part of training trained with limay. shucks. din know that she's injured then made her run so much some more. sighs. feel guilty. my xia shou is like the real problem. urghs. don't know when will i master the skill. but never mind. everything takes time and effort, i will not give up trying ya. i just hope that limay's hand is ok. =( sighs.

i began to see the other side of someone, i guess that i sorta condemned tha person from the start. i guess i sorta feel bad about it. that person is nice and caring after all. and will be a great friend to have. at least someone whom i can crap with and laugh with if we ever become close? just see what god has planned for us. =)

i shall not comment much about this portion. i am sad ya. or rather disappointed. but treat others like how you wanna b treated, so i have no one else but myself to blame ultimately. i guess i'll try to think of something to improve the situation. or am i just being plain sensitive on my part? i'm puzzled too. sighs. what a sad day. i din expect that kind of cold treatment no matter hat. but i guess one would always be tired if i continue to just give cold shoulders and refuse to take the first step towards everything. even when you do approach, i'll be rather resevered and quiet. perhaps i was just shy. and i am really shy. i'll try to reverse the situation and see how it goes ya. i hope everything will work out just fine. or at least things will be a little better as compared to now ya. i really regret my actions. but i really did it not on purpose but because i need time to figure out things. i guess it wasn't fair to you too. so i will just keep quiet for the time bring and do what is appopriate when the time arises. i promise i will do sometihng. or at least try my best.

actually there's a paragraph of words up there. ya. but i jsut made it white. but no matter how a reader highligh it, it cant be seen. i don't know why. well. just let me be something that let me voice out my feelings and thoughts for the day. i'll change the colour of it when the right time arises ya.

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