hmmm. in class blogging now, but my eyes are closing. darn tired!! have not blogged for the past two days cause i really have no idea what i wanna say. plus things have not been going my way and i don't wish to mention anything, just trying to sort out all the stuff going in my head before everything starts tumbling down on me again. but i have to say that i am pretty diappointed and upset about certain stuff. though i am trying my best to forgo it, it's not working ya. i am still stopping at that spot. is it all fated that i saw something that i am not suppose to know or see. or wa it not refering to me at all? i have no idea, i am just plaiyng by my intuitions. and i hope my intuition is failing me. i wanna tell myself thati still can trust and believe what i used to know and understand. is it too much to ask for? i have no idea what's going on and what are people thinking cause all of it seems like a puzzle and mystery to me. maybe i should not even speculate anything. cause i will tend to think more than what i should. those that were once close to me, or at least i thought so are so far away, while those distant ones seems to be making the effort and we seem much closer. is it my fault that i din put in any effort to maintain what i already have or used to had. so right now all i have to do is to take initiative and everything will be ok? but how am i suppose to do so after what's happened. i am afraid to believe ya. i don't wanna have another blow that i can take ya. i know my limits. and i've reached my limits. will what i expect happen after i take the initiative? i am also afraid that the reaction after my initiative is not something that i want or expected. if it happens. what am i suppose to do? sighs. especially when things got worst now. majorly due to my fault. shucks. why cant i wake up one day without worrying about anything? will it kill just to spare me one carefree day?

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