don't know how to start this entry. bah. woke up at 4pm today and still felt tired. guess i was really tired and really had lack of sleep and was partially due to me being sick. sighs. my sis got scolded cause of me today. sorry sis. din want it that way. lucky you don't blame me. =) oh then xian and my youngest sister joined me in the sick community. = guess it's cause of me again. sorry that you guys got the germs from me. =(

i'm getting sick of just impressing people or make people's life happy and mine miserable. people are just taking things for granted. after all these years, i'm still a punching bag. or a anger absorber. although i appear nonchalant; there're many times when i wish that i can just run away. =(

don't have much to say today. but just wanna say that it has not been one of my best days either. how i wish there will be one day when i can just sleep, and upon wakng up the next day, it's a total new day without any problems or worries from yesterday. how i wish. and i will continue wishing. haha. =

should i go for NCC day? all transport will be provided from KC. bah. feel like it. but i don't want to see someone. shucks. again avoiding another person. i think i will be going though. have been mia-ing fron KCNCC for so long and i really miss those guys. be it the NCOs or the cadets. you guys have made my life meaningful and colourful. =) wonder who else from my unit will be going....

still thinking about the usual stuff.. i can't make a decision although i know which is the correct one. i just can't give up either. but i know that it's wrong to have one now, and later abandon that one for the other one. sighs. and i can''t be so bad by taking another one as a replacement in case i can't get the one that i want. =( i guess i'll just have to survive with the alternate thingy of mine. but i'll try to do something about it. or at least come up with a solution. or maybe follow what i have thought of already.i am really lost about this. =( i need help.

i'm tired.
i don't wanna say anything anymore.
i've hang on for too long, tolerated for so long.
i'm numb.

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uni.
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