another stage of life that is bringing me down. everything seems so overbearing and i feel so burdened. overburdened. each step that i take is driving me to desperation. on the surface i appear to be alright and smiling. but deep down my world's crashing and i'm crumbling to bits. those things that i wish to make right turned out to be even worst. i'm tired ya. i wanna give up. totally give up.

my sister is in the hospital now. suffering from dehydration, that's what i heard last. my dad stayed over with her last night. indirectly it's my fault ya. all my fault. last night when i went home, i became a punching bag again. but nvm. i understand what my mum is going through ya. i'm a anger absorber.

there are so many two- faced people around me that i really don't knoe who to trust and who not to trust. today's probably another day thats i have expected to be. another person who;s ignoring me. but who to blame? only myself, cause of what i did. lets face it. what's piling up is not going down, and not anytime soon either. i am sick of it ya. what will happen if i stand in the middle of a road one day?

my relation with certain people are getting all strained. from attitude to avoidance. am i suppose to take everything to myself and keep quiet about it again? everything is too much for me to take.

i really wanted to try to improve on things, but why must there be obstacles to stop me time and again? why cant things go my way once. just once? forget it ya. lets face it. my life was never smooth-sailing anyway. and if i can end it in a simple way. i will. i'm not that strong after all. i have my limits. and all that's happening is exceeding my limits.

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